Finally Free!!!

Just when it looked my dad would get out of jail and hurt me, Cal saved me again. He testified against my dad. At first it looked real bad, the lawyer made it look like we were in love!!! But my mother finally told the truth about baby Jacob and now he's going away for a long time. It feels good to be able to live. Wear nice clothes, have fun, not have to be scared all the time. There is no way I will ever be able to repay Cal for all that he's done for me. I wish I could do something, but he told me he is glad he helped me so that's good for now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gqT6En2O78

Am I Free?

Something happened today and I don't know if it will be good or bad. Some police came to my house and started asking my dad questions. I couldn't really hear them but next thing I knew my dad stabbed one of them. They arrested him and I told the cops about what he's been doing. I was so scared but Cal and getting the nut goodie bar gave me strength. Then my mom contradicted me and lied for him. He's gonna get out of jail and kill me. He won't just drive me crazy like Helga, he will kill me.... this is not good. It happened here if anyone wants to come by to help me:
http://maps.google.com/maps?hl=en&q=1869+Goodrich+Avenue,+Saint+Paul,+MN&um=1&ie=UTF-8&sa=N&tab=wl

The Candy bar that saved me

Today was the day that I was finally going to free myself from my father's abusiveness by taking my own life. I saved up moth balls and was going to eat them after school today so my father couldn't hurt me. Then Sandy, Cal's friend, came up to me and gave me a Nut Goodie bar from Cal. Right then I knew that Cal was with me and that I would be okay. I knew that I didn't have to kill myself because someone was with me. This is a song by Percy Mayfield that spoke to me in this situation.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PoZlcq9eL1k

Best day of my life

Remember that sweet boy Cal who listened to me? Well today he gave me a beautiful pair of loafers to keep in my locker and wear at school. He knew that my dad made me wear ugly clothes and ugly shoes, so he bought me some with his own money! He's such a nice boy! Maybe I'll see if he can help me out with my real problem now... my father. But the loafers are enough for now. I can't remember a time when I was happier. I hope daddy doesn't read this and take my shoes away.

I can't believe I told someone...

I accidentally told this nice guy at my school about my dad's abuse. How he whips me when I do anything wrong, even if it's not my fault. I was really scared and he heard me talking about it to myself. His name is Cal and he asked my about it today in 7th period and I told him. It actually feels good to finally say it out loud, but I'm scared and can't tell anyone else or my dad might find out... he'll hurt me. I've sworn him to secrecy. I think I'll talk to him about it more since he's the only person that will listen to me. Maybe he can help me get rid of my dad, he can't tell anyone though. I know I'm sinning by writing this... I hope dad doesn't see